Going quiet, James rested his cheek against Len's, soaking up his lover's presence and letting it ease some of his agitation. When he sighed and spoke again, his voice was steadier. "Sorry. I'm taking this out on you. I keep going back and forth, over and over, swinging from one side to the other. The only thing I'm sure of is that you're the best thing that ever happened to me, and I can't imagine finding some dame that would fit me half as well as you do. Even if the person she'd be fitting didn't have anywhere near as many rough edges."